So here goes the 2013

Pretty awesome pretty sad pretty in love pretty not. 

People come and go and here I am trying to make a new room for new friends and love. I used to believe that people can fake their smiles but they can never know how to fake their tears and their feelings and yes that was me. Losing your best buddy hurt so much more than losing your boyfriend. I admit, I make mistakes. I admit, I  have been such a fool. I admit. I admit. I admit. So please say your sorry for not talking to me, please say your sorry that you never look at me, please say your sorry because I do miss you Bestfriend and its killing me. Or maybe not... You will never say you are sorry, you will never look back, you will never ever talk to me. And maybe I should believe that sometimes people have to get hurt or lose to remind them (me) of the value of the things that they have right now. 

Time to get real and stand up for what I believe in even if that means I'm standing alone. 

Love, tasyalova. 

Are you ready to reggae yourself?

The only reason why I shared this because I'm obviously in love with my sister's voice and this song and it also has a deep meaning in it. Well, teenagers this is for you & I.

Freedom

Why freedom? Well this is for you whoever you are.

To me, freedom means each moment, of each day, of every year I can do all things or atleast try all things that I desire. To me, freedom means being able to show sadness, happiness and anger in public. To me, freedom means feeling safe, confident and secure in my country. Freedom is being able to have a voice and to let it be heard. To me, freedom means having the right to make my own decisions and choices. Freedom allows me to pray and worship the God of heaven. Freedom allows me to love and hate. Freedom allows me to buy, own and sell. It allows me to come and to go places. Freedom allows me to obtain the things I want and discard the things I don't. Freedom is waking up in the morning with sunshine even when the sun rays aren't penetrating through the clouds. To me, freedom is a promise that I can live my life.

Highschool friendship

So long 2012, so long sixteen years old. Can't believe by next year kita semua form 5. Time flies by so fast and things change a lot. Biarpun next year kita SPM, let just stay cray cray all the time no matter how hard situation is. Thank you so much for being such a good friend to me all the time. I don't know how to repay all of your kindness towards me. I love and miss you guys so much! Last but not least, going to spam my blog with old pictures. Friendship pictures on the go, are you ready to see your cocky smile? 

HOLD ON THERE! Stop laughing like duh.

You say pohh, I say sitive.

Setelah selesai scroll meng-scroll kawan-kawan punya blogger. I laugh so hard. I think it's funny because we are all unite as a bimbo years ago. Lame lame lame lame but hey that's what make us today! All in a good happy position. Got to admit we're all young, naive and immatured back then. Still is now and still is cray cray to the max but that's how we roll. But I've learned that people make mistakes, people come and go, you give in and out love, true friends stay with you no matter how hard situation is, some friends only need you when they're in trouble, took for granted, family & home where the heart is. I'm always happy for who I am. I never regret anything in life. Well, I used to hate and regret almost everything about myself and my life but after all the things I've been through, is not that sucks at all. In fact, my past show who I am today and I stand for myself that life is un-predictable and wonderful at times. Life is always wonderful, it is. You just have to look it more clearly and clear up your negatives mind. I should be thankful for what I'm having now. So dear readers, eh adakah pembaca? Seh senyum tersipu malu. Ok back to basic, dear readers time put all the negativity into the bins and let positive vibes surround us. With God's willing, Ameen!

Confessions

So here we go, as I'm trying to find a topic of the day. I would prolly like to tell you that I'm all lifeMORE instead of lifeLESS. Well sweetheart, no one wants that to happen. So Hafe gave me a good advise which I must and have to stay away from any cellphones and ofcourse Twitter because less people I'm confront with the least drama it will be. I hope it works, cross-fingers everyone! Now where were we? Oh confessions! Confessions about too many to list down but here some

• FATS 

No one or in the whole wide world wants to be fat or look ugly. So I'm gonna let it all out here which is I'm officially sixteen years old and I'm still fat. Good Lord, just help me already. I'm tired of being fat. 

• MONEY

First of all, time is money and money is everything. I love $$$$, well who doesn't? I'm one useless kid you ever met because for sure I'm afraid asking for money from my parents. I don't know why but I always have this kind of feeling every.fucking.time when I ask for money from them. Coward kid? Ah I'm just tired to distress my parents. 

• COMBINATION OF HOLIDAYS & STUDY 

Swear to God, I don't feel like having a good trip or else because I'm having a hard time here trying to catch up with my studies which I did studied today. It's all because of SPM. Time flies by so fast that I will be 17th next year and sit for an exam, well not just 'an exam' but a BIG EXAMINATIONS that prolly prescribe what I'm gonna be, my job and my healthy good future with God's willing. So, cut off the holidays and say hello to books again which is so gonna be my bestfriend during this holiday. 

• LOVE

I'm not looking for it though. Cinta membuat hidup terumbang-ambing. Gotta admit, I'm all sigh-ing while typing about 'love' topic. For sure, love is easy but to find love is not that easy. To fall is easy too but to confess how you feel is not easy as an ABC. I've been through not much about relationships but I'm tired of brokenhearts, I'm tired with boys. I'm just tired to commit with anyone everyone everybody. Too tired that I can't even describe how tired I am about love and all. End of story. 

• FRIENDS

People come and go, love come and go, friends come and go but true friends stay loyal no matter how hard time is. Thank you so much Good Lord for sending me beautiful insane kindhearts of true friends of mine. I'm blessed. Well somehow, middle finger highly up for my fake friends. Thank you so much for being want-to-know buddy, backstabb me and all shits you have done. Hell where your heart is. 

I was about to tell you more and more true confessions but I think I should just stop complaining. The more I complain, the more I'll be pathetic. Therefore, I shall stop. Less complain, less pathetic. Save drama! Adios lavs muchos. 

Happy

I'm so happy as my title said so. It's September and it's my month bitch, my month. Life was pretty unsure but I swear to God I'm very thankful that I'm still here with my family, friends and special one. Farewell August, you taught me how to be strong when no one else was there for me. You taught me not to trust people easily. You taught me clever words aren't the same anymore. You taught me there is always a way if you keep believieng there is. Thank you so much August. \

Alright, back to basic. 

Tasa Loba is so happy to the max because finally I can fit my bikinis. You know the feeling when you wanted that thing so badly since years ago and now you finally can rock them? Here is the picture of me rocking my bikini. Do rotate your head.

Done with bikini's and now time to tell you a story of my life. This is how the story went, I made lots and lots of mistakes nowadays and I wish I could lay down myself without no one there beside me. It was kind of hard when you trying to do the best but everyone think it's not the best. Remember when I said every relationship isnt a mistakes? I was wrong. Maybe because I was stupid that time or maybe because NOW I'm not over it. I have no idea but yeah I love someone else, be with someone else. So wrong. Damn wrong. But hell yeah, I made it over the top and I'm glad my friends always be there for me. Thanked them, thanked God, thanked myself for being strong enough to face all of these shits. Love life.