When I definite YES

Just got back from a long jogg and I feel like updating my blog, you know that kind of feelings you feel like letting it out but you can't and you try to elaborate it on your blog. Ha'ah that's what I talking about! School was pretty bit of shits, I escaped and try to run away from everything that I don't even know what for and there I realised that 'why am I doing this and this is not what I wanted for the first level' so typical. Since my bestfriends and family got mad on me so I guess I'm going back to school and do it like I used to. Sometimes I really need to face with all of these shits and trying to not run away. I have to face school life for not just sakes for my family but my ownself too. But then I would like to say thank you to my heartbeat for being there for me through thick and thin, I love you and I don't know how to describes how much I love you since we met. Hehehe I laffs latte you muchhios cappucino. Oh anyway, I will be in Philipines for quite a while just for a holiday sensation. I hope everything turns infinite alrighto! Happy Holidays and have a pretty one. Much love.

Buewno Maws ❤

I'm the girl...

I’M THE GIRL WHO TRIES TO BE NICE TO EVERYONE THEN GETS TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF. I’M THE GIRL WHO TRIES TO LOOK PRETTY AND IT’S NEVER GOOD ENOUGH. I’M THE GIRL WHO ACTS LIKE SHE’S HAPPY THEN GOES HOME AND WISHES TO BE GONE. I’M THE GIRL WHO TAKES HARSH WORDS, ACT LIKE THEY’RE NOTHING, THEN GOES HOME AND CRIES. I’M THE GIRL WHO TRIES TO GET HER POINT ACROSS AND COULD NEVER FIND THE RIGHT WORDS. I’M THE GIRL WHO HAS MORE DEPTH TO HER THAN EVERYONE THINKS. I’M THE GIRL WHO HIDES FROM THE HARSH EYES. I’M THE GIRL WHO WOULDN’T CARE IF YOU GAVE ME A SHITTY GIFT AS LONG AS YOU THOUGHT OF ME. I’M THE GIRL WHO PRAYS THAT SOMEONE WILL FINALLY UNDERSTAND. I’M THE GIRL WHO GETS HAPPY OVER THE LITTLE THINGS. I’M THE GIRL THAT PEOPLE MISINTERPRET.

Melangkah lagi satu step ke hadapan.

Assalamualaikum and goodmorning to everyone.

Hidup? Well, it's getting much better then what I expected. Alhamdulillah, everything went well biarpun sebenarnya dalam hidup ada upside down but still boleh lagi handle. Study jadi terumbang ambing since I'm all wrapped with teater so I don't have time to catch up my studies. Paling kecewa and paling tidak dapat terima yang sebenarnya aku langsung tidak dapat angkat account which all of my family tidak pernah fail dalam account. But nevermind, there's a way, Insyaallah. Well about love? Tick tock tick tock. Pardon me for madly in love with this guy named Haszairrie Heezad. I was naive and ego yang aku langsung tidak mau mengaku but atlast aku termengaku juga. Thanked god, there's a girl yang willing dengar semua apa yang aku rasa, Hafezatul Hanis. Since I met him, I'm the weakest girl yang sebenarnya aku sendiri baru menyedari hal sedemikian. I get jealous very easily whenever I'm with him but I keep it with my ownself since aku tahu apa batasnya antara aku dengan dia. But then, I just can't, I told him everything. Ego pun pudar. Sampaikan Tian cakap aku nda pernah jadi begini. It's kinda funny tho', perubahan yang baik atau tidak baik itu belakang cerita. Yang aku tahu, aku sudah suka and sayang manusia gila ni. Uh and I've been thru a lot sama dia. Paling sedih semalam sebab benda yang aku expect betul betul terjadi tapi I'm so gonna throw all the negativity into the bin and take all the positve vibes. Akhir kata "Kalau ada jodoh adalah, kalau tiada sedihlah aku" 

Loves, 

Tasya Lova

Almost Lover.

Ceritanya begini...

Semuanya start dari salah sebut nama, "Nabila" since semua orang tahu aku paling benci kalau orang pronounce nama aku yang tidak betul lepas tu yakin yang itu nama aku. Dia sebenarnya lama sudah di sekolah cuma kami tidak rapat sebab aku ni kalau bab mau kenal orang kurang sikit. Dulu time form 3, aku selalu nampak muka dia sebab aku officially menjadi budak sesi pagi. Terdetik di hati yang dia tu sebenarnya sebiji dengan pelakon Indonesia, Dude Harlino. Naik form 4, kami start rapat sebab mungkin budak senior itu-itu saja yang aku kenal lagipun dia yang layan aku dulu. Itupun bermula dengan "Nabila" sumpah annoying budak ni termasuk kawan-kawannya. Semua panggil aku "Nabila" instead of "Natashabilah" well, in sudden dia follow aku di Twitter mungkin sebab aku ni di kenali tweetgeek. Kalau boleh, dalam satu hari dia memang tidak sah kalau tidak tweet aku. Dulu kami selalu pura-pura couple sebab entahlah kenapa. Dia yang start duluan. Aku pun si bodoh meng'iya'kan ja since I'm no longer taken. At first, memang tiada hati langsung sama dia ni tapi that one fine day akhirnya aku jatuh hati juga dengan dia. Tapi, aku selalu menafikan sebab aku pun tahu mustahil kalau dia sama aku. Lagipun, time dia layan aku dulu, time tu dia ada krisis dengan ex gf dia. Tidak mustahil kalau he just needed me sebab dia lonely. I refuse not to ask him the truth. Day by day kami selalu texting, selalu skype, selalu twittering, selalu facebook-ing and semuanya. Aku pun sebenarnya kurang pasti apa sebenarnya yang dia mau. Dia mau jaga hati aku sebab aku minat dia kah ni ataupun sebaliknya? Aku pun speechless. Aku sudah hidup hampir 8months tanpa orang yang selama ni aku rasa aku akan hidup semati dengan dia. Well, I was wrong. And now, aku jatuh hati dengan lelaki yang sememangnya aku pun tidak kenal dia siapa sebenarnya. But then, aku sudah buat keputusan yang sebaik-baiknya yang aku akan follow the flow apa yang akan jadi next dengan kami. Kalau iya pun ending pasal kami sakit, watlek watcool sebab aku tahu aku yang ambil jalan begini. Eleh, sakit? Biasa sudah. Terlebih dari biasa. K I sounds so trip bila "terlebih dari biasa" hahaha.


K till then, blog akan di update bila aku rasa mau meluah. Assalamualaikum. 

Hello

Ingin menjadi seorang murid yang cemerlang dan berjaya di masa kelak bukanlah senang bagiku. Well, first of all aku sememangnya tidak tahu mengatur masa. Ups and downs of life. Getting hard and harsh yet I'm still alive and Alhamdulillah masih boleh lagi menempuhi semuanya. But my mom said "Ini belum lagi hidup. Hidup adalah selepas sasa habis sekolah. Itu baru hidup sebenarnya" apa yang Ummi cakap tu benar sebab Ummi lebih berpengalaman. Since Nina Fareesya pindah aku pun jadi lifeless di kelas. Seperti biasa aku sememangnya stick dengan Mark 24/7 but I decided to stay away from him since kalau kami duduk sama-sama kami nda belajar. OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AND THERES ANOTHER STORY TO TELL!

Hari ini adalah hari yang amat di nanti-nantikan para 94's. I'm very proud of them all. Especially to my dear Hania Bamadhaj Omar, no matter what I still love you okay? If you read this kau jugalah paling di hati saya kan Nea, don't be sad. Masih panjang perjalanan. I know how it feels. I've been there before and kau juga yang suruh saya sabar no matter what right ninja and now kau pula perlu sabar. Prove me that you can bitch! Kasih lari itu airmata tu. Hahaha love you. 

" I was always on the run I tell ya, it was not an easy road but now I'm ready to be enjoying fire and the best things in life are sure cause I do know what it's like to feel sad all the time. But you see, wicked vibes bring the joy in your life "